Pieces Of ME :)

Why is it when I’m in a new relationship it feels like everything in the past is just repeating itself. When I’m in a relationship the guy wouldn’t have so much time to spend with me, I’m always the second best, He’s like doing this and that or busy with this and that, and I’m just gonna wait ‘til he contacts me or if he wanted to see me, and if I try to call or text him because I wanted to be with him he would get angry or he would just like said NO to it or just ignore it, I’m always the one to Wait and it’s tiring and the relationship would end up just like that. I don’t know if the problem is in me or I really am not good in choosing someone to love. I’m beginning to get tired in hoping and waiting for my Happy Ever After. Sometimes I’m thinking that I should prepare myself to grow old alone. I mean I’m just tired of everything, I’m tired giving so much love and at the end getting hurt. I don’t want to be hurt anymore, I don’t deserve it. I know I don’t! But why do guys keep on making me feel so special and when I fall hard they would left me hanging. I hate it when guys make a fool out me :( it’s tiring, it makes me feel so numb. I just wanted to have someone who I can be myself, who can love me in spite of my craziness and someone who can stay by my side even if its so hard to be with me, I’m not asking for too much I’m just looking for someone who’s Man enough not to hurt me.